I will send Reiki to your situation and life to manifest your highest good ^_^ I'll add your name to my new crystal grid.
I do have some advice for you, as I'm working on a similar situation with myself and it's almost over

The first thing to do when dealing with things like this is to embrace them totally and completely. I wrote about this in my post Unlocking Your Life. If you accept any roadblocks or stumbling stones as
yourself, then they will heal and clear up! We all strive to heal ourselves and understand that All is One and everything is
you, but we end up taking the things that seem negative, unhealthy, and unloving and separate them from ourselves and write "toxic" on them. But we have to love them and see them as a part of us, and then when we heal ourselves, those things are being healed too. Troubles in life are there to purify
Another thing is to call on the Divine to bring forth our Highest Good. The way I pray for situations like this is, "please make this situation turn out for my highest and best interest and for the highest good of all. If it is in my highest good, please take care of ___, ___, and ___ for me. Much love, amen." This takes us out of the control seat and allows the ones who see the big picture to work.
You seem to be like how I was

I was troubled with the things within and closed myself in my head to escape them, because I had full control there. I may be totally wrong, but that's how I understood what you were saying. Just know that the mind and heart are built to be used in unison and it's not good to use only one or the other
Highest Blessings!
-Wes